Thankful.....Friendships......

I know, I know.......I haven't really been posting anything too meaningful lately. I have sort of felt like I have been in a fog......life has been a bit of a whirlwind....not all bad......just a bit foggy. There really is no other way to explain it, but I feel like I have been in a fog.

However, over the last few days I have really been thinking about people.....relationships.....and the importance of certain people in your life at certain times. As I am sure you can tell if you read this blog, relationships are important to me. But lately I have been kinda reflecting even more (yes, big surprise for those that know me). I have been thinking about my friendships....the kind of people I am more "attracted" to....because let's face it....I am sure many of our close friends have some sort of similar qualities - I mean those really close friends. When I think of my close friends.....I have found that I am typically closer to those that are "NF" on the Myers-Briggs......especially "INF".....but definitely a few "ENF". Yes, I know, leave it to me to equate everything to the MBTI. It is not like I "seek" those people out.....I just think that for some reason......I naturally become closer to those types of personalities. ;-) It is just easy.....sometimes more of a connection......

But I have met some people over the last year or so....that are a bit out of the my "normal" friendships. Truth is....I am so thankful for the so many friendships that I have. I don't necessarily see everyone as much as I would like.....but am thankful that I know if or should I need something, I could call someone. I am thankful for the diversity in personalities that are a part of my life right now in my friends. I have been experiencing so many different things over the last few months personally.....and am thankful for some of the fun people I am able to spend time with...that help me feel normal and make me laugh......

I am also thankful for those friendships that I have had for quite a while. I am not going to name any names......but I am sooo thankful for those friendships that I have had for quite a while and one in particular.....I have been able to go even deeper with lately. I love depth......Okay, I shall name names......love you Gen! Depth in friendships and people are so important to me. I love you Girlie!! And though we have known each other for at least 18 years.......you have been such a great friend lately!!!

Of course, as stated earlier.....I am also thankful for my other friends....where it doesn't have to always be about deep conversations.....but those you are able to go out with, share, enjoy a few drinks and have some fun. I feel so blessed.

There is also another person that has entered my life in the last 4 or so months. Someone I am thankful for.....and have been able to talk to....and feel comfortable talking to her. As of lately, it has been a bit more difficult for me to share about myself in many of my friendships....as I feel selfish. I like to be the listener, the empathizer, the helper, the encourager. I am thankful for these qualities in myself as I truly care about people.......but so many times I feel selfish to even begin to talk about myself....and to be honest, for some strange and unknown reason I have found it hard to talk about myself at all (but yet I am a verbal processor). I feel I am a pretty open book, but lately, unless someone asks me questions......I have not really been openly sharing about myself....not that I don't relate on the "surface" level to many...but not the "depth level" (and I have noticed about myself.....that I have also been avoiding sometimes when people do actually ask me questions - haven't quite figured out why.....as this is not really me). Yes, the last 6-9 months have been a bit different for me. But anyway....back to to the beginning of this paragraph, I am thankful for "this person" that came into my life about 4 months ago! ;-) Thank you for being caring....and truly caring about me and being a good listener! ;-) I know this is just naturally who YOU are, but I am thankful for that.

But anyway.......I know most people probably can't relate to this post. But I write all of this just to stay how thankful I am for people that have been placed in my life. I am so thankful for so many of the friendships I have for so many different reasons! I love you all!!! Thank goodness for fate and diversity in people (personalities/qualities)! And in typical Amy fashion......sending HUGS to each and every one of you......wish I could do it in person!!! ;-)