Does anyone else struggle with putting on a happy face even if you are not feeling happy?? Well, I certainly do! Now don't get me wrong, I do wish I were happy all of the time and I like to be positive as much as I can...........but darn it, some days I just don't feel happy (especially in the dark Winter's of Ohio). Then it is kind of like a vicious cycle because I long to be happy all of the time....always smiling......so if I am not I feel bad about myself....and then feel worse and less happy! Geesh.....now, how crazy is that?!?! ;-)
I feel like when needed (for example, at work), I am able to put on that smile (especially with students), even if I am not feeling it inside. I mean it is my job and I need to be professional. But I think those are the days where I am a bit more exhausted in the evening from "faking it" all day long. Don't get my wrong, I absolutely love my job.....and could NEVER imagine doing a job where I am not working with people. However, those days when I am not feeling particularly happy are hard. Even though I HIGHLY value when people are genuine and authentic......sometimes I wish I could be a little less!! I wish I could fake it a little more (even though I really value that genuineness in others). How contradictory of myself - ha!
Last night I was talking to a fellow blogger on the phone (won't give out too much information to protect that person - ha). This blogger said one of the reason he/she has not been blogging as much lately is because he/she has been feeling a bit down about certain things.....and doesn't want the blog and be negative. I totally get that, as there are times where I want to blog about topics (or actually have written them, but didn't hit publish).....but have refrained because I do not want to sound "down" or "negative", but at the same time.......sometimes in those moments of weakness/struggle are when others can learn/glean from you (in my opinion). So, fellow blogger.......I say go for it!! Blog about your feelings (of course with what you feel comfortable sharing), sometimes we can't all wear a happy face every second of the day.
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