Self Worth.....

So....I have a few minutes to write a few thoughts that I have been pondering over the last few minutes after a discussion earlier today. I am sitting at work, but officially finished at work....just waiting until I head off to downtown to teach my Franklin class tonight (for 4 hours, I might add). So......

Where do you find your self worth?? I started thinking about my identity....and were do I get my worth from? I would say in a more recent past....like 10 years ago, I would say my faith and maybe lessons learned in life. However, now.........I sit here and ponder it a bit more.....because my life is a bit different now. I think often, I base my self worth on perfection.....or imperfection in my life....but that is an entire other blog. I also think I often base it on MY strength and HATE when I fall short.....and I have been personally feeling like I am falling very short in being strong and admitting weakness lately. Really only 1 person knows that right now....and the details involved. But apart from my personal characteristics....whether good or bad.....I really think I feel good about myself when I connect with others. I really think I find myself more confident and "worthy" when I am able to make connections with people. When I am able to learn about people (invest).....find commonalities and truly be vulnerable and share in those commonalities. Sure, that doesn't happen too often....and sometimes they may be non-deep commonalities....but still topics you can "relate" to or talk about. I am thankful for the friendships I have!

Sometimes I wonder why I am such a relational person......and if I am feeling "off" relationally....it makes my day less happy. I suppose that is what got me thinking that I may find some of my worth (or most of it) in my friendships and relationships with others. And by that, I don't mean they need to give to me......but I find "worth" in connection....in spending time with others....in investing and giving to them. That leaves me satisfied and happy....

Hmmmm.....probably something I should ponder a bit more. Oh, and of course......get over trying to be perfect and strong all of the time. But those are issues I will probably be dealing with for a long, very long time!!!! ;-)

I am sure I find self worth in other things too........but these are just some thoughts I had this afternoon. And since there is no one here to talk to.......I am blogging!!! Luck you, readers! ;-)